Half-Assing It

This post has been saved until such a time as I am physically unable to write a post in a given evening.

Damn, used it the evening I wanted to get to bed before 1am. Ah well.
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I've been noticing lately that when I write this blog post as the last thing I do in a day, I tend to write as little as I possibly can. Part of it is due to an inability to think of a good topic or theme, or sometimes because I just plain don't feel like it at the moment.

Writing is hard. Getting the motivation to write is harder, at least for me.

I'm particularly good at half-assing things. I multitask, which means that at any given time I have three different things going on in my brain, and while one is pushing to get done, the other are taking up valuable brain space and hindering me from getting anything done at all. It's like being pulled in multiple directions all the time.

It's nice when I can focus on doing one thing at a time. It's a rare but wonderful feeling, where I get the satisfaction of being productive while feeling personally fulfilled that I'm able to dedicate myself (with full attention) to one thing in particular.

Sometimes I feel that the only times I'm able to focus so single-mindedly on things is when I am busy. I think a lot of people feel the same way, because I've observed exceptionally busy people get five times as much done in a week as someone who has absolutely nothing to do. Being busy encourages you to get things done efficiently, no procrastinating or dilly-dallying allowed.

The only deadline that I am currently working under (other than the date I will be leaving Los Angeles) is when I go to bed. I've started telling myself that I absolutely cannot go to bed without writing a blog post (however short) and writing for at least 10 minutes, be it on paper, on my phone, or on my laptop. I'm a little over ten days in, and it's working exceptionally well. Now I just have to work on getting myself to full-assing the blog posts and fiction writing so that it's not at the back of my mind right up until all I want to do is fall asleep.

I'll get there.